Sexuality and Fantasy

Slim and None

(…continued from “A Good Man is Hard to Find”…)

In a recent post, I talked about how hard it was to find a good man in pursuit of testing my boundaries as a woman.

More and more, I am starting to feel that, rather than wanting to know how it might feel to be picked up in a bar, I’d much rather find a mate in a different context.

The sad truth is that I am very much starting to think in terms of romance – not love, mind you, but romance.

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A Good Man is Hard (to Find)

For women, finding the right man can be a hard thing to do in the best of circumstances.  But, for me, the difficulty is off the charts.

Just being trans whittles down the pool by more than 90%, I figure.  But that’s just the beginning.

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There is no “O” in Sex (sometimes)

I continue to be surprised by some of the insights I have gained in my journey between the genders.  Sometimes, I feel like a double-agent, infiltrating the feminine ranks in the dating game and bringing back valuable insights for the male side.

In her comments on one of my blog posts about a month ago, Trish reminded me about one such insight, and I have been meaning to write about it ever since, only getting to it now. (Sorry.)

Trish’s very frank comments talk about how she and the men she dates relate to each other, especially sexually.

What caught my eye was her comment about never having an orgasm yet totally enjoying herself.

…don’t know about “never” but…

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Lustful Longings

Lately, for whatever reason, my libido has been running on overdrive.

And, that goes for both sides of my being.

Just yesterday I was sitting in a cafe, wearing a tank top and jeans, when I felt this guy brush against the back of my bare shoulders on his way by.  My skin was atingle, hoping he might stop and say hello…  sadly, to no avail…

Then, today, as a guy, I saw a movie trailer, and the vision of the porcelain-skinned Emily Blunt in a low-cut dress had me swooning, and fantasizing like an adolescent boy.

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Miss-taken – Surprise!

This year, Boxing Day Night was a Sunday, and Monday being a holiday, the turnout was sure to be good, so I made a point of getting out there.

I found myself sitting at the bar talking to a woman when another young lady approached me.

“Hi, I’m with two friends who would like to meet you,” she said, leaning over and pointing to two guys about 10 feet away.  “Are you interested?”

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Lingering Doubts

Ever since I returned home from a recent driving trip, I have been out of sorts.  I have fallen into one of those periods of malaise that affects many crossdressers, I’m sure, where I am just not sure whether the whole thing isn’t just a waste of time.

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Despite the many strides I have made, there seems to be lingering doubts as to whether I am simply being self-destructive, or maybe even undertaking some elaborate form of procrastination.

I mean, I put a lot of time and effort into all things Janie.

Then, sometimes I find myself face to face with the mirror, thinking, “You’re just such a weirdo.  Wouldn’t your time be better spent on something more constructive?  What good can come of this? Stop trying to be something you’re not!”

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Feet, Glorious Feet

It’s quite something, this girl thing!  I find pleasure in the most unexpected places…

I’ve been walking around a bit in a jean skirt and high-heeled mule-type sandals, which does present a challenge after a while.  But that aside, I sat down at a patio table at Fred’s Mexican, and let my sandals slide off my feet as they dangled from the bar-height chairs.

It surprises me the sensual feeling I am getting from sitting here with my feet, the pair, bare, in the air… legs crossed, hair tossed, getting sauced on a fabulous margarita!

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He’s a Lying, Cheating Homo

Continuing my story from last night, our lesbian friend did manage to propose to her belle, and near as I could tell, the answer was yes. I say this because champagne was offered around and I saw them hugging. But she still didn’t seem satisfied for some reason…

She also was still perplexed by my existence and so was her fiancée. “You’re straight, right?” asked the lesbian fiancée.

“Well,” I said, “that depends on what you mean by being straight.”

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A Girl’s Good Name

I have been deliberating lately about posting risqué photos of myself online. Why? Why not?

It is funny that some t-girls use the fact that they look unlike their true selves and have a made-up name as license to behave in a way that they truly might be ashamed of. Of course it has occurred to me that I could publish even pornographic pictures of myself and it would not affect my daily life or reputation.

But it would affect Janie’s.

And Janie is me.

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Over- Anxious

A recent encounter with a man reminded me of my own past difficulties – in another life – dating women. Now that I get to see things from the other side – her side – I really have to sympathize with both players in the dating dance.

Long ago, I was, as he and so many others are, the kind of man that could fall hard and fast for the right woman. As a woman, I am discovering just how unsettling that must have been for her!

The dating experience is just so different from the man’s and woman’s points of view.

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