Jan
12
It is an inevitable challenge of being a heterosexual t-girl to decipher why it is that you like what you see in the mirror, to distinguish between your internal self and your external self.
As a non-T guy, you can look in the mirror and think that you look good, and that’s as far as it goes.
But, as a trans-woman, your impression is clouded by the simple fact that your guy side will be attracted to your female presentation.
So, when you look in the mirror, are you a woman admiring herself just as any single-gendered person might?
Or, are you a guy, being turned on by that woman in the mirror, whom you know you can have, who you know will do the things you want…
Jan
09
I was having a pretty ordinary night out and was about to start making my way home when someone gently touched my arm. I turned around to see who it was, and there he was… yum!
The handsome guy standing before me was dressed smartly in all-black. I knew him from several online chats we had months earlier. He was kind of an alluring rascal: a sex-obsessed scallywag with an impish grin and a wry sense of humor.
But, standing there in front of me, dressed up nice, my oh my, he was a real cutie!
“You have no idea who I am,” he said.
“Oh, but I do,” I smiled, willing my eyes to sparkle, if that’s possible.
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Dec
06
Perhaps I was naive, but I never used to have a problem with pornography, especially where, rather than being exploited themselves, adult women had the power, if they so chose, to exploit others’ interest in their bodies for their own gain. But, whatever my impressions in my younger, more masculine and more innocent days, I’m convinced that today’s porn represents a clear and present danger to the fabric of society.
My attention was turned to this industry when I received an unsolicited offer of a contract from a pornographer. That led me to research, which in turn led me to nauseous disgust.
The porn industry is dealing with many challenges these days, not the least of which is the availability of free XXX movies online, in any flavor imaginable.
The industry – or at least a certain segment of it – has responded by trying to up the ante by dreaming up ever more extreme versions of perversion – as if this will make the free clips obsolete, like last year’s smartphone.
Any sane person would realize this is nonsense. Anything they do will be online and free in short order, and force them to push the line even further; there is no way to keep up.
But, much more importantly, they are degrading humanity.
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07
Gabriela is a friend of mine, whom I have gotten to know through exchanging comments here and on flickr. She is smart and sexy and, of course, has experiences and perspectives to offer that are somewhat different from my own. I enjoyed reading about her experience on Halloween, and she has kindly agreed to share it with my readers.
For my first night out alone (without my usual female bodyguard) last Halloween I figured it would be a good idea to dress modest, at least by Halloween standards.No high heels, no deep cleavage, not much exposed skin, no drag-queen-like makeup, no XXL-sized boobies. Everything low-key.
I went to a public Halloween event and was surprised how much vinyl, leather and latex walks around and seems to be acceptable nowadays.
Very good, my chances to enjoy myself, dance all night and not run into someone who knows my alter ego or is annoying in general were good.
I’m not used to attend such huge public events, even less all alone.
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Jul
09
I drove home alone late last night tormented with a feeling of disquiet… Puzzling sensation it was, since nothing of any great import had gone on, really.
Oncoming headlights whizzed by as thoughts floated through my mind’s eye, replaying the few hours just passed and trying to explain the pit in my stomach.
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It had been, actually, a good night… to a point.
I went out to a club alone, and was greeted there by the smiles and open arms of a few friends. A while later, I found myself chatting with a couple, when a nice-looking man with a full head of greying hair approached and asked me to dance.
Nevermind that the song that was playing was the bane of my existence in high school (I won’t date myself by revealing its title), I happily accepted.
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Jun
30
I have been chastising myself lately for being a bit too reclusive and not making enough of an effort to get out there and meet more people. So, when a guy I met online asked me to coffee the other day, I decided that I’d just say yes.
Well, coffee was great, but he didn’t show up. (Hence, “Unreliable E-Male.”)
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05
I’m not one to kiss and tell, right?
Yesterday, I posted an account of an evening I spent with a guy, and I included a couple of pics, including one of us kissing.
I knew something was bothering me about the post before I put it up, but now I think I know what it was… I think I subconsciously realized that I was worried that my post was tantamount to showing off my date to everyone… kissing and telling, as it were.
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Jun
04
On our drive to San Diego last month, we stopped off to visit a friend at his home.
We know him as a nice, funny and handsome guy who has a passion for life and plenty of laughter.
He was a consummate host, taking us for a lovely walk along the beach, showing us around his home, and going out for dinner with us to a terrific restaurant.
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May
23
Staying at the Hard Rock Hotel, we just had to check out the incredible vibe and energy coming from the club in the lobby.
Unfortunately, it was 1 a.m. and they weren’t letting anyone else in.
As we stood there, forlorn and forsaken outside the velvet rope, Prince Charmin ’ rode to the rescue.
He came up to me and stood in real close, looked me in the eyes and said, “I am so taking you upstairs with me tonight.”
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May
21
Ahhh, the Dating Game…
Bachelor Number One
Out last night at a bar, I found myself dancing alone on the dancefloor when a guy came up and asked if he could dance with me. Not really interested but happy to have some attention, I agreed.
We danced for a song or two, and then he started dancing ever closer to me. At first I tried to restore the distance between us, but eventually gave up on repeatedly backing away.
However, certain business had to be taken care of. I don’t do surprises, and I’m pretty sure that dancing any closer would have given him information he might not have been happy to receive in that way, if you know what I mean…
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