May
18
I play hockey. No, not Janie, him! Yes, him – the guy that I am.
I have always been fairly good at sports, and quite competitive, and I proudly love and play Canada’s game – hockey.
But, there I was last time out, when a guy took a shot that hit me in the ankle and smarted like the ever-lovin’ dickens! And, what do you know, but the only thought running amok in my head as I crumpled to the ice in pain was, “Oh, no! I am going to have a bruise; how will I ever be able to wear that skirt and heels next weekend?”
Now, it didn’t take me long to become more realistic in my thinking, but it was no less distressing, “Sheesh, this really f***’in hurts… I might not even be able to walk in heels at all!”
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Apr
28
Well, another of my friends has just undergone boob surgery, and each time this happens, I can’t help but wonder what it would be like if I were to go that route.
It sure would be nice to have a (more) feminine chest, that’s sure.
But, each of us has her own journey to follow.
Boobies would certainly pose problems in my male life – a life I still hold dear. I would never get really big ones anyway, and so they could be hidden, but still…
But, the more important issue for me is that I am still struggling with the extent and nature of my femininity. Currently, I take great pleasure in my ability to be convincingly feminine without surgery or hormones, and, in fact, I consider that to be my gender identity – that I am naturally able to assume the role of both or either, without the need for drugs or implants.
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Mar
24
Their hands caressed every inch of my body, every nook and cranny – well almost. When they were done with me, I was little more than a hunk of quivering Jell-O; it was as if my bones had turned soft.
This was the best threesome I’ve ever had – and I hope to do it again sometime.
For those of you who have never had a “four-handed massage,” I assure you that the experience is exponentially greater than the sum of two plus two.
We are, indeed, talking here of massage, and not euphemistically about anything else. Tsk! Get your minds out of the gutter…
The thing about having two therapists working on you simultaneously is that your whole body is receiving attention at the same time, and you drift into an incredible state of relaxation.
Expensive? Yes. But memorable.
Put it on your bucket list; you won’t regret it.
Jan
19
Yesterday, it finally happened.
I don’t normally kiss and tell, but as there really wasn’t any kissing involved, I feel somewhat free to tell all.
Yes, I met a man. We talked for a while, and I found him intelligent and forthright. Long story short, he gave the impression that I could count on seeing him in the future pretty much whenever I wanted.
Having built a rapport based on trust, I allowed him to get me inebriated. Pretty soon, he got me out of my clothes, and then took out his enormous um… equipment… and, slowly but surely, penetrated me.
By the time he was all the way in, I had actually fallen asleep. It seems he had drugged me…
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Dec
08
Another first for me… I went to a lingerie store and picked out a couple of bras to try on.
Normally, I shop in department stores for this kind of thing, and just make a guess, then take them home and try them and return them if necessary. Also, I usually let GF pay, so she can be the one to return them.
Anyway, there was a cute girl dressed in the lingerie store’s own PJ’s in charge of the fitting area. As I approached, she asked me how many items I had, and then, noting the bras, asked their size. Thereafter, she escorted me to my change room, telling me that she had been trained in fitting bras, and would be only to happy to check the fit for me once I had tried them on.
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03
Travelling sometimes means that it is harder to be in the right clothes at the right time, and the other day was one such time.
Being at the door of a store full of yummy girly clothes, I just had to go in, even though I was totally in guy mode.
No matter… it seems my shame – at least in this respect – has vanished. I was picking up items here and there and posing with them in front of public mirrors, and then went so far as to get myself a dressing room and try some stuff on.
Tried on shoes too.
The sales staff never batted an eye…
Nov
09
Last time, I spoke of practicality (horrors!) in terms of feminine footwear, and related it to passability. This is a bit of an addendum to that post.
While part of me wants to be as authentic a woman as possible, another part recognizes that tgirls are, by definition, exceptional women – exceptionally good, bad or just different, we are not the same.
I have often made a point of saying how much I feel that being a tgirl is being a special, wonderful, rare creature.
So, I am well aware that simply striving to be a woman like every other is not always the goal.
I am not entirely without sympathy for the concept that guides some of us, that many GGs have come to take their femininity for granted and have dropped the ball.
We may want to pursue that so-called lost art of femininity, but even then, if it is to have any effect outside of the individuals doing it, it is still an evolution, not a revolution.
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05
Wow! Came across these fabulous capri pant looks while responding to a comment on a previous post. Had to share ’em! (More at Fashionising.com)
Nov
05
Ok, maybe a bit melodramatic… maybe saved my feet is more like it.
But, I have never had a love-type relationship with flats. I think that women – and especially tgirls – look much better in heels.
The tgirl as
pect is important. Men tend to have larger feet and proportionately shorter legs than women, and heels address both concerns. A bent foot is a smaller foot, and obviously a heel extends the length of the leg.
But, (I can’t believe I am saying this!!) there is a practical aspect to life as a woman. GF will be relentless after hearing me say such a thing, but alas, it is true.
Until now, I have adopted the approach of taking along a pair of running shoes and wearing them on the treks from place to place, then changing into heels where people might see me.
But, aside from being inconvenient and forcing me to have a larger purse at certain times when when I might much prefer having that really cute small one, stuff happens while you’re on the way from A to B.
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Nov
03
Coming across as a woman involves communicating as one – and that’s a much broader concept than one’s actual voice.
Far from the direct and monotone, goal-oriented communication that men use, female speech is differently motivated and but one part of a much more complex form of communication.
To effect a feminine voice, you want to have an acceptable pitch – which is what most of us focus upon. But, there are plenty of women with low voices who are never mistaken for men. So dwell on that for a moment.
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