(This is the first of what I hope will be more than a few guest posts written by my GF, Emily.)

I have come a long way since I first encountered Janie some four years ago. Of course, Janie has come a long way too.

Although Janie was never hidden from me, and I learned about her at the same time as Janie did herself, I still went through many of the usual trials and tribulations most women go through on learning that her spouse is a crossdresser. Flash forward to the present and I don’t really even think of Janie as a crossdresser now, but rather I think of her as a unique person with many interesting sides, and someone I‘m lucky to share my life with. The best of all worlds in many respects. We have always been the best of friends in addition to lovers, but now I have not only a spouse, a lover, and a boyfriend, but a girlfriend too!

When we first starting going out in public I used to wear a wig, just like Janie did. I didn’t want to “out” us by having someone we know take a closer look at her after recognizing me. We were both pretty scared of being found out, especially me! With time and experience this fear has dissipated to a large extent. And, the irony is that we are now so much more recognizable! Janie no longer wears a wig (having grown out her hair in the past two years), and likewise, I have also stopped wearing a wig in public when I’m with her (unless just for fun).

Going out together now is no longer the anxiety-provoking experience it used to be, although walking in and out of our front door still causes me to hold my breath. However, despite all of this, I still don’t want us to be outed! That is why what happened the other day struck me as quite remarkable!

Janie and I went downtown to do some errands and I forgot to be scared walking out the front door with her to our car. Nor did I blink an eye later, when we got side-tracked for a couple of hours trying on shoes out in the open, and in a fairly central store at that. In fact, I only realized as we were walking back to the car to go home that I had not once had one of my usual thoughts or worries – what if we see someone we know and can’t avoid them, or worse, what if someone we know sees us and we don‘t see them! And, not once did I find my self looking around to see if anyone was staring at us.

However, I did notice a couple of men looking at Janie in the shoe store (but not staring with curious looks on their faces). Not a surprise really, as Janie was looking very hot in her jeans and a cream knit top, with one shoulder exposed as she leaned over to raise her pant leg to admire the sexy sandals she was trying on, showing off not only her beautifully pedicured red toes, but a shapely calf as well!

I’m still not ready to let our friends and family be privy to Janie, no matter how wonderful I think she is! I may have come a long way, from seeing her in that first pair of sexy pumps, to our first dinner out together as “girlfriends,” to now, but I’m not sure I’m ready to deal with the reactions (and judgments) of others just yet.

For now, Janie will have to remain my secret (I hope) new BFF!