Jul
23
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Jul
22
Yesterday, I was asked why I would feel inclined to try the boy thing again after having moved so far away from it over the past few years.
An interesting and instructive question at that. So, here is how I answered the question, more or less:
It seemed a pretty natural idea – this experiment – given all the doubts I have expressed recently right here on my blog. I want to see what I miss or don’t miss. I want to see what has happened to my guy side – whether he is the same as before or not, and whether whatever started me on my feminine road tweaks me again.
No doubt that Janie has become a dominant force in my life, though she is not a dominant personality at all. The majority of my time has been spent as female for months now – all but a sprinkling of hours here and there.
I need a better understanding of where Janie came from, whether it is a choice or not, and whether it serves me well. I am striving to find all that out as soon as I can, and I will accept whatever is truth for me.
In that regard, take note of a little inner conversation I had this morning when I got up after not nearly enough sleep.
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21
I am currently in the midst of an experiment, taking some time off from being Janie, and seeing how it feels to just be a guy for a bit.
At first, it seemed a hopeless undertaking. I’d catch myself rubbing my smooth thighs together without even realizing I was doing it, or find myself perched on a chair in a ladylike manner. I began to feel that Janie might always bleed through and the experiment would be doomed.
But, a little time has cured that problem – for the most part. I have remained in male mode for the better part of a week now, and I haven’t really missed being a girl too much, at least not yet – although I must confess that I haven’t had a single sexual thought in a while.
Then again, I have just been living the life mundane. I have been busy with work and a few social obligations that would have required the male of me in any event.
The rest of the time, I have been doing a lot of soul-searching about my dual existence – and some good has come of that, which I will share in later posts.
Today, my regular exercise program called for yoga. I may have revealed this before, but I’ll mention it regardless; my guy-side doesn’t do yoga. Or, maybe it is that yoga doesn’t do my guy-side. What I’m saying is that yoga makes me feel like a girl. The moves are graceful, and the whole spirit of the practice is so feminine to me that I never would have taken it up if not for Janie.
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Jul
18
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Jul
17
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